My thoughts: On growing up, and pushing one out of the nest

Sean was awake at about 6 AM this morning when Mike left for work. I have a (somewhat flexible) boundary that I don't get him out of bed before it's light outside, or before 7 am, depending on which comes first. Even though it was almost light outside, I waited until about 7 to go into his room and he had actually fallen back asleep. So here I am, dinking around on the computer.

I know I say it in almost every post, but I want to be better about blogging. I enjoy sharing my thoughts and lifetime events with my web friends.

I have been living in Washington for about a month now (26 days actually) and I am starting to finally settle down a bit. I have trying (not too hard) to find a job, but I think today I will try a little harder. I want to get back into the Dave Ramsey way of saving/spending again, and we kind of fell into some bad habits again with living so far away from each other, having to spend on moving expenses, etc. Now that we are settled and money will be more predictable, it's time to retrain ourselves to make our money work for us again! And in order to really do that, it's important that I find a job. Sean is older now so I don't feel as bad about working and having him in preschool. Plus, I am really trying to get a job at a preschool, so technically he will be going to work with me! It's better this way- I have experience in working with preschoolers, and most schools offer discounted tuition if you are employed there as well. So overall I think this is where we will all be happiest.

I have been thinking about a lot of things lately- way too many things to be precise! I tend to get stressed out and anxious easily, and then I have a hard time reigning my focus back in, so I can actually accomplish things. I think this is another reason why I enjoy blogging- it helps me to organize my thoughts. It's difficult to think about money/finances, getting a job, raising a toddler, and organizing life things all at once. I don't know how some people do it!!

But what I wanted to vent about today mostly is all of the changes we will be going through with Sean over the next few months. I think I am the type of parent who strongly believes in not holding my child back from his fullest potential. And I guess most parents would say that, but what I mean is, I am not afraid to push him out of the nest when I know he is ready, figuratively speaking. I find that nowadays, parenting in the norm is about letting your child show you he is ready before training to do things, like sleep in their own bed or on their own, or get rid of a paci, or potty train. I have been a bit of the opposite in that area, from what I see a lot of parents do.

When Sean was 4 months old, I knew he would sleep better if I could put him down in his crib without having to rock him for 20-40 minutes each time (I use the term "rock" loosely, because I was actually having to practically dance around the room in order to get the kind of movement he needed to fall asleep). So we did Ferber's method of "Cry it out," sometimes dubbed CIO. It worked pretty well for us. It was some of the most difficult nights I ever experienced. But it only lasted a few days for us, and really after day one he actually fell asleep at a few naps and at all of his bedtimes with no crying at all- he would just turn his head and falls asleep. I have absolutely no regrets about this decision- I never once "abandoned" him, as some like to say. I would hold him and hug him and tell him I loved him, and that it was time for "nigh-night" before I would set him down in his crib. I only put him to bed when I knew he was sleepy, I didn't do it at a specific time of day in order to force him into a "schedule." And after he was down, I would set a goal for myself to wait "x" number of minutes before returning into his room to reassure him that I was there. I knew at all times that he was full, dry, tired, and not in pain. I always reminded myself that once he was in the crib, I was committed at that point, so we always made sure to feed, change, give medicine if necessary, etc before bedtime/naptime began. And during my check-ins, they were always brief but loving- a soft rub on the back or belly, quiet shushing and a quick "It's time for nigh-night. I love you." before leaving the room. We used a paci, and each time if it was out of reach I would give it back.

Now that he is 1 and a half years old and has been a great sleeper (for the most part) ever since, I am thinking about our next "bad habit" to break- his beloved paci. He sleeps with one in his mouth and one in his hand. He only gets it at bedtime, and they go straight into the crib whenever he wakes up from bedtime or naptime. I am really wanting it to be gone before he is two, but part of me wonders if I should even wait that long. It only gets more difficult as they get older, right? He passed the 18 month mark, and technically that is when our doctor told us we needed to start weaning him off of it. I have read several things online that say to simply snip the tip of his paci off, so when he goes to suck on it, it serves no gratification. This way it's not as alarming as taking it away cold turkey, and usually it sounds like the child will eventually stop using it and forget it exists. I am hesitant to believe it's that simple, but I do like the idea of actually weaning, rather than just taking it away one day. Our pediatrician always compared it to smoking- he said it was their addiction, that made them feel good. Literally like a smoker and his cigarettes. So maybe it is better to find a way to wean him, and to do it soon.

The next two things on my list go hand in hand, and I think they are the true marker of when a child graduates into toddlerhood (or as we tell them, being a "big boy"). These things are potty training and moving up to a toddler bed. At first, I was only thinking of potty training- Sean has shown some signs of being ready, so I wanted to roll with that and see where it takes us. No more diapers? Yes please!! But then I got to thinking- I think it is downright mean and confusing to expect a child to cooperate with potty training during the day, and yet keep him locked up in his crib for 12-14 hours between bedtime and naptime. How is this encouraging independence in using the toilet? From my experience working at a preschool, pull-ups are just a glorified diaper that doesn't have velcro. It is NOT a step from diapers to underwear. When the child can actually feel what is happening when they go to the bathroom, that is their motivation to go in the toilet, rather than in their pants. Pull-ups take this away from them. Plus, when you put your child in a pull-up, you are basically giving them permission to "have an accident" now. I think this is much too confusing and sends your child mixed signals. If anything other than underwear is to be used, I think it should be some lightly padded training unerwear. Something to take some of the mess away, but not inhibit the feeling of wetness. I also have been using cloth diapers on Sean since he was about 4 months old, so I am probably a bit biased, as I would hate to start putting him in paper/plastic disposables again, when he has grown accustomed to having cloth on his behind : ) I hate to take too big of a stand on this issue, because this is my first child and I have yet to actually potty train him, so I am not one to tell everyone how it is or how it should be done. But I am speaking from my basic knowledge of child development and opinion on how to encourage and foster independence in them in each sensitive period of their life.

So there you have it. A little bit of what I have been thinking about the past week. I haven't really drawn any new conclusions from typing this into my blog. But I feel a little better getting some thoughts out of my head and more organized than they were before.

Woah, where have I been???

Ok, it's been since April 2011 since I posted last, and I guess you could say A LOT has gone on in our lives since then!!

Let's start with Mike getting an employment offer from BNSF (Burlington Northern Santa Fe) for a conductor trainee position in Seattle. Yep, pretty much turned our world upside down for the last 4 months!! Mike left Lafayette on May 9th and started work on May 16th. Sean and I stayed in Louisiana until we knew it was for sure. The idea of moving back to Washington was a bit scary. But honestly we had nowhere to go at that point but up- Mike had been laid off and living off of unemployment since January, and had exhausted all of his resources for finding a job in Louisiana (other than going back to diving, but he had pretty much lost interest in leaving his family to go offshore a long time ago). So we kind of knew that when he did find a job, it would probably mean uprooting our lives and moving away.

So I enrolled Sean in preschool about a week after Mike had left. We had already been looking for a while, since we knew Mike would get a job at some point. So luckily I already knew which one we liked best and knew they had an open spot. Being a "single" working mom is some tough business though!! Dropping Sean off before I went into work, then picking him up on my way home, to have a messy house and a dog to come home to, and having to quickly throw something together for dinner. Not to mention knowing I would eventually be packing our 3 bedroom house up by myself.... Luckily I have the coolest friends ever in Louisiana and they helped me a lot with packing, organizing, selling furniture, and just plain keeping my sanity!!

I quit my job at AT&T in June. I couldn't handle the stress anymore, and my new schedule conflicted with Sean's so much that I was going to have to drop him at daycare and also have my friend pick him up, and I was also having to work every Saturday, so I wasn't really going to see him much and didn't like that idea at all. Especially with his Daddy already being gone, and we still didn't know how much longer before we would be reunited. I was majorly stressed, but looking back now I am glad I made that decision. I ended up getting extremely sick right after my last day, and I honestly think it was all of the stress that made my body susceptible to it.

So thanks to my Lafayette ladies, I was able to pack up the house into a 15 foot moving van, attach a tow dolly onto the back of it, and bring it and my car almost 3,000 miles to WA by myself (well, not technically by myself- our dog Jax was a great travel companion!) Before "moving day" I flew Sean to my parents' house on the Oregon coast so that he wasn't forced to do the drive with me as well. It took me about 5 days to get from Louisiana back to the coast again- I left Monday July 25th around 3pm, and got to Portland, OR on Friday July 29th around 5pm.

Now we are finally settled into our cozy 3 bedroom apartment in Renton, WA. Mike is really enjoying his job with the railroad. His schedule has been a little crazy and unpredictable, but it's nothing worse than what he dealt with when he was diving. Actually it is much better, because he isn't going to spend weeks away from us anymore, the longest he has been gone so far is two days. And after he completes his training program in October, he won't really have to travel at all if he doesn't want to.

Sean has been a real trooper through it all. The last 3 months for him have consisted of:

1.) Going to a new preschool for about 6 weeks and then staying home with Mommy again

2.) Getting super sick and dealing with a nasty summer "cold" from May to July (which turns out it must have been allergies because it cleared up as soon as we got to the west coast)

3.) Watching his entire house get packed up over a 10 week period

4.) Flying to Oregon and staying with Mommy at Nana and Grampa's

5.) Driving to Washington for the weekend to see Daddy (after 10 weeks of not seeing him)

6.) Driving back to the Oregon coast

7.) Being away from Mommy for a whole week!! Yikes!! At Nana and Grampa's house while she drove the moving van

8.) Driving back to Washington with Nana to move into his new apartment home, finally under the same roof as Mommy, Daddy, and Jax all at the same time

It was officially 12 weeks since we had lived with Mike on the day we moved into our apartment. But hopefully it is the last time we will have to have an extended time away from each other again!

I feel like it all went by so slowly while it was happening. But now that I am living in Washington, I feel like it happened so fast!! I miss my Louisiana friends so much. And it is so strange getting used to living here again. This is the place where I grew up- not the place where I became a Mom. The idea of raising my child here after being away for so long is still sinking in. I associate this place with my childhood, not my son's!! But it is slowly starting to feel normal again. I have seen a handful of my old "besties," and still have a few more calls to make as well. I am really lookin forward to rekindling a lot of my old friendships, as well as meeting other new mommies to be friends with.

The other thing I wanted to update on very quickly is our son- he is amazing!! I can't believe how much he has changed over the last 6 months. It feels like yesterday that he started walking, right around his first birthday. Now he is 18 months old, and the kid RUNS everywhere he goes. He talks all the time, and is so interested in learning EVERYTHING there is to know! He is completely and utterly OBSESSED with letters. I think it is because his favorite TV shows were always 'Super Why' and "Word World,' and they both are all about letters, reading, etc. He has some foam letters, and some magnetic letters for the fridge, and some blocks that have letters on them too. He surprisingly knows almost all of the names of the letters, and a lot of their phonetic sounds too!! He can sort of spell his own name (thanks to putting it in big letters on his wall) and is always finding letters everywhere we go and making sure to point them all to us. Our new favorite routine is when we go for walks around the apartment complex- he points to all of the letters on each building and tells me what they are. He even plays "hide and seek" with some of them. Like, we will pass the 'R' building and he'll shout "R!!" and then he'll say "S?? S?? Ooooo??" ('Ooooo' is his way of saying 'where are you?') When we get to the 'S' building he'll get excited, like he finally found it after searching for so long!! He has been lots of fun lately : )

He has also been very needy, I believe as a result of all the changes he has gone through. I am trying to take it all one day at a time, but it's kind of a tricky situation. He was very independent before, never really needy for me or whiny for attention. Even when he went to daycare, he wasn't frantic to have me come back for him. But now sometimes when I even leave the room he will start to throw a tantrum. Other times, though, he doesn't seem to care. I am still trying to figure out the best way to respond to his behavior, but I am sure it will start to get better once he realizes that we will be staying here for a while.

Anyways, it's getting late now and I think if I write much more this blog post will no longer be fun to read. So I will leave you with this, and try to keep updating when I can. I will also try to post some pictures later. I still need to get back to my 30 day blog challenge, so hopefully I will post more on that soon!!

Apparently I never posted this one??

*EDIT* So I just found this entry here that I never posted...... So I guess I will publish it now!! (Originally written 5/18/11)

OK so I guess I kinda gave up on the 30 day Blog challenge from before. But with good reason!! We have been super busy here, preparing ourselves for all the changes we are about to forgo!! Mike FINALLY got a job (after being unemployed since January). He applied for a Condutor trainee position in Seattle, since he felt like he had exhausted all of his options for work here in Lafayette. He got an email asking him to be in Seattle in April for an interview, and then in May he got an email confirming that he had passed all of the pre-employment criteria and that he would be starting work on May 16th!

Sooooo He packed up his bag, put his bike on the truck bed and took off!! Sean and I plan to follow him there sometime in July or maybe August. I am hoping it is sooner rather than later because we miss him so much, but we are trying to be realistic, considering we are still broke and have a 3 bedroom house full of things to move with us.

But this is such a blessing to us- Mike has been unhappy with his career in diving for a while now, and I have never truly enjoyed my job either. We have established a true home down here, being that we live in our own house and have so many close friends that are like family to us. But we knew that it was time for a change. We spend so much of our lives working within our career, I am a firm believer that you should at least enjoy if not love your line of work.

I am excited to think that I might be able to go back to teaching Montessori preschool again, and Sean will be about 18 months by the time we are back there, so shortly after we move he will (hopefully) be able to attend the school I will be working for! Plus Mike is excited to be in this line of work- his Dad worked for BNSF as well, and Mike knew what a great company they are to work for. So overall this change is for the better!

BUT we have so much to do over the next few months- pack up the entire house, find someone to rent it out so we don't have to sell just yet, all the while I still need to work because we are not financially stable on Mike's income just yet. Which means that Sean will be attending Daycare for at least the next few months. He started at Butterflies Preschool on Monday, and honestly I think he is actually enjoying it. It has been so hard on me, but at this point we don't have a lot of other options so we do what we have to do! I think my biggest problem is not that he has to attend preschool, it's mostly that he has to be there for such a long day! When I am working a normal day, I drop him off at about 7:30 am, and then I don't get back to pick him up until about 5:30 pm. That's 10 hours!! I think he is just too little to have to be in school for so long.

But the good news is that he plays well with the other kids and he loves his teachers. So I just keep telling myself "This too shall pass" and go about doing what we have to do.

Anyways, now for some updates and pictures of our awesome kid!! Sean is almost 16 months old, and loving life!! He is usually a pretty happy kid- he loves to play outside, especially in the water, and he loves to read books and eat!! We just had our 15 mo. well baby visit, and it looks like he is 25 lbs. (51%) and 32.5 inches tall (80%). Dr. Bailey said he seems really smart and healthy and has no concerns about him.

We are going to go to an eye doctor tomorrow though- Sean has had clogged tear ducts since he was a newborn, and last week he either drained a bunch of stuff out of them or he got some sort of infection, because his eyes were incredibly swollen and oozing lots of greenish yellow pus- gross!! He took some eye drops for a week though, and those helped tremendously. Now he looks back to normal, but of course he still has the obstructions because his eyes are constantly welled with tears and he has gunky stuff in them most of the time. The eye doctor is going to let us know how the procedure works to get the obstructions removed, and let us know if it is something we can continue to wait on (to see if he will outgrow it) or if we should have it taken care of sooner than later. So wish us luck!!

Sean has gotten to be so smart. He loves to repeat words back to us, and he uses a handful of words regularly with us- dog, ball, water, cracker, help, paci, outside, book, "word world" (a TV show he loves to watch), slide, and of course he says Mama, Dada, Nana (Grandma), Dee (Dan), Za (Josh), Daa (Jax) and Tatee (Katie). He is very verbal, which I did not expect because it's pretty common for boys to take much longer to communicate than girls. But I don't think he will have a problem with communication!! He loves music and dancing, and has started to say parts of songs we know, so I don't know if it counts as singing along or not. He'll say "E-I-E-I-E-I" when we sing "Old Macdonald," and he says "Boom Boom- Crazy!" when we sing "Boom Boom, Ain't it great to be Crazy?" and sometimes when he is watching "Word World" he will pretend to sing along with them, by shaking his head and opening his mouth wide and going "Ahhhhhh." He's pretty stinking cute to watch : )

Ok, here are some pictures of our pride and joy- stay tuned for more updates later!!

Day 2 of "30 Day Blog Challenge"

DAY 2- THE MEANING BEHIND YOUR BLOG NAME

Well honestly when I started this blog about 3-4 years ago, I googled quotes to find one that meant something to me. I found this one by Maya Angelou and I thought it fit really well- "This is my life, it is my one time to be me." Maya Angelou is an American author and poet, her works started in the 60's and have continued to make an impression on people today. I tend to think of myself as one who has all intentions of just putting myself out there, so you can choose to take me or leave me, but I am who I am. I like the idea of being able to live my life, embracing that each moment is its own, different from the one before and the one after. It really makes you appreciate what is handed to you, and also to make the choices that you feel are going to better you as a person, and better the world around you.

Day 1 of the Blogging 30 day Challenge!

OK so I guess I will give this a try. I read my friend's blog, and she is doing a 30 day challenge. There is a list at the bottom of this post, of everything that you will blog about for 30 days. This is to boost your blog activity. Let's hope it helps!!

DAY 1: RECENT PICTURE OF YOU AND 15 INTERESTING FACTS ABOUT YOURSELF

This was the most recent picture I could find of myself. It's from when we went to the zoo a few weeks ago. I guess that can transition me into fact # 1....

1. I am usually the one behind the camera (because my son is so cute and my husband is handsome so why wouldn't I take pictures of them?) so there are not a whole lot of pictures of me that I can think of.

2. I am originally from a suburban city called Issaquah in Washington state. We moved there when I was little and I lived there until I was 18.

3. My parents moved to Oregon when I was 18, so I moved into my own apartment the same day that I graduated high school.

4. I taught Montessori preschool for 5 years. I truly believe this to be my calling. I miss it pretty much every day. Working with preschoolers is the coolest thing ever!

5. My husband went to dive school in 2005, so in 2006 I packed my bags and moved out of my comfort zone in WA to be with him in the dirty south- Lafayette, LA. Been here almost 5 years now.

6. I have always owned a pet at some point in my life. The longest I went without a pet was from August to November in 2006 when I first moved from WA, I gave my cats to my parents and couldn't handle being along all the time so we got a dog.

7. My favorite type of gum is watermelon. But sometimes I will chew peppermint.

8. I hate to wear shoes- my husband calls me a hippie because my feet are always filthy from being barefoot all the time.

9. My biggest pet peeve is small, trimmed facial hairs in the bathroom. There is something about them that makes them IMPOSSIBLE to clean up. I really don't mind cleaning the bathroom- until someone trims their beard and forgets to clean up the hairs. Then I will lose it.

10. I love to cook and bake. I am not excellent at it- or maybe I just feel that way because I never feel like I know what I am doing. But there is something calming about creating good food. Of course, when it comes out terribly I am not very relaxed ; )

11. I spent the last year at home with my son after he was born, and I discovered that I am definitely one of "those people" who never truly has to have a real job in order to be happy. I could easily be a stay at home mom for the rest of my life.

12. I have been a part of an awesome online community of Commercial Diver Wives (aka DW's) since 2005 and they are quite possibly some of the coolest people I have ever conversed with. Honestly though, since my hubby quit diving, sometimes I feel guilty about still being a part of the group- like I don't really belong there anymore.

13. I honestly do love Cajun food and music. I will miss it if we ever move away from here.

14. My absolute favorite type of food is Mexican. And my favorite type of sweets is ice cream, hands down.

15. I think my husband and son are pretty much the most awesome people in the universe and I thank God every day for blessing them into my life.

There ya go!! Stay tuned for the next post. Here is a list of all of the posts for the 30 day challange. No promises that I will post every single day, but I will try to eventually make it through all 30 posts!!

day 1- recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

day 2- the meaning behind your blog name

day 3- a picture of you and your friends

day 4- a habit that you wish you didn’t have

day 5- a picture of somewhere you've been to

day 6- favorite super hero and why

day 7- a picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

day 8- short term goals for this month and why

day 9- something you're proud of in the past few days

day 10- songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad

day 11- another picture of you and your friends

day 12- how you found out about blogger and why you have one

day 13- a letter to someone

day 14- a picture of you and your family

day 15- put your ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play

day 16- another picture of yourself

day 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

day 18- plans/dreams/goals you have

day 19- nicknames you have and why you have them

day 20- someone you love

day 21- a picture of something that makes you happy

day 22- what makes you different from everyone else

day 23- something you crave for a lot

day 24- your last five facebook status'

day 25- what I would find in your bag

day 26- what do you think about your friends

day 27- why are you doing this 30 day challenge

day 28- a picture of you from last year and now, how have you changed since then?

day 29- in this past month, what have you learned

day 30- your favorite song

Christmas in Oregon, Sean's birthday, and everything else I can squeeze into one post!!

So I know I have been reeeeaaally bad about blogging. I feel kind of bad. I like to read over old posts and remember what life was like when I was writing them. I also know that our family and friends enjoy reading up on our life (especially Sean's!) So instead of using my lack of posting as an excuse to continue ignoring my blog, I am going to do the opposite and try to catch up on everything I should have blogged about the past few months!!

Let's start back in December- Mike, Sean and I went to Oregon to visit my parents who live on the coast. Of course we had a blast!! It was nice to see my parents again, I wish we could see them more often. We spent lots of time at their house (Sean was on a pretty regular nap schedule back then and trying to ignore it usually made for difficult days) but we also got to spend time at the beach and catch up with a few friends! And we were there for Sean's first Christmas, so we had lots of fun with him opening his stocking, presents, etc. Because I am trying to fit a lot into this one post, I won't go into too much more detail, but I will post a few pictures from our awesome trip!

eating dinner made by Grandma

Love my Little Man

Our friend Brittany came to see us!!!

Relaxing on our vacation

Getting dressed to go to the beach

Grandpa Bill, Grandma Mary, Sean, Jenn and Mike

I love my family

opening his presents on Christmas morning!!

playing with my parents' dog Robbie

playing games with Daddy

our friends Hugh and Sarah came to see us from Portland!

Sean and Grandma!!

Mike's grandparents came to see us too- so they are

Sean's great-grandparents Jim and Judy!!

In January our sweet little baby officially turned into a big boy- we celebrated his first birthday on the 25th, and shortly after our little man took off walking and never looked back! His birthday party was so much fun! We celebrated on the 25th with just us, and then had a birthday party for his (and our) friends on the following Sunday : D We learned that Sean loves cake and balloons, and he got some really neat presents from friends and family as well. Mike's mom Angelia came over from Austin to spend some time with us as well. Here are a few pics from his birthday!

eating the first cake on his actual birthday- I love chocolate!!!!

opening presents from Mommy and Daddy on his birthday

Sean's birthday cupcake at his party, made by our friend Nicole

I love this cake too!!!!!

Mommy was getting a little emotional about her baby turning one!

Here's some cake, Mommy, it will make you feel better!!

Uncle Josh!!!!

opening presents from friends and family

birthday balloons!!

Cupcakes made by MaMa and a little Pooh Bear (his favorite stuffed animal)

February marked me going back to work at AT&T, and Mike staying home with Sean. Sadly Mike was laid off from his company Ranger in January, so finances have been a bit tight. But right at the same time we read Dave Ramsey's book "The Total Money Makeover" and it has helped us sooooo much with keeping our heads above water through this tough time in our lives. We have switched over to a cash only budget that we go over every two weeks when my paycheck comes. We pay all of our bills through the bank with our checking account, and all of the other money we have gets withdrawn and divvied out into envelopes for specific spending: gas, groceries, etc. It has been really tough but well worth it. We are also working on paying off all of our debts and eventually being completely debt free! That's a bit of a road ahead of us, and we really can't work too hard on our "debt snowball" until Mike is working again, but we have made a vow to not accumulate any more debt than we already have in the meantime. Also, Mike's unemployment has somewhat been a blessing in disguise. He and Sean have gotten to spend so much one-on-one time together, so the two of them are like peas in a pod. Sean loves his Daddy so much, and Mike has really gotten a lot more comfortable with the parenting thing since having to do so much more on his own.

I am back to working at AT&T full time now. I had to go through 4 weeks of classroom training again (New Hire class) along with 4 weeks of "transition" training. This week is technically my 4th week of transition, but I also had a bunch of 2010 carryover vacation days that had to be used before March 31st, so I am actually taking this week off from work. When I return on Tuesday, I will have a much better schedule: weekdays 8:15am-5:15pm with Thursdays off, and Saturday I will work 8:55am-5:40pm. I am so excited to be able to make dinner and spend time with my boys in the evenings now!! The past 7 weeks I have been working 10am-7pm, so I am still home early enough to put Sean to bed, but just late enough that it's hard to get anything done before I am ready to put myself to bed. Even though I am giving up my Saturdays for an earlier schedule, I am hoping this change will be for the better.

Our sweet little man Sean is just blossoming so quickly it's been hard to keep up!! He officially took his first (3) steps at my parents house in OR on Christmas day. Between then and his birthday, he would switch back and forth from being daring and trying to step from furniture without holding on, to just crawling with no walking at all. Right after I started back at work was when he truly became comfortable with it, so I have it written in the baby book as February 8th when he took off walking and never looked back.

He has also gotten to be much more interested in communicating. He signs several words with us, some of which he tries to verbally say as well. He signs water, more, all done, eat, milk, bath time, diaper, potty, dog, fish, help, night night, cracker, and book. He is trying to verbally say water, ball, book, dog, DaDa, MaMa, shoe, diaper, bathtime, kisses, hugs, hi, more, all done, and see. I am sure I am missing some! A lot of time he will get his signs mixed up, but we are still working on it! Also sometimes he forgets the sign, but I will know what he wants so I will sign and say the word, and then he will sign and try to say it back. It's really neat to see him develop so quickly! He also like to play "peek-a-book," and when he sees our cell phones, he puts his hand to his ear and says "hi" : D

Sean loves to eat, sleep, read, and play outside. Those are probably his most favorite things! Along with dancing- the kid loves music!! He also loves to watch the dvds we have for him, but I am really trying to not over-use those, especially considering how beautiful the weather has been! We have been trying to take him for walks around the neighborhood at least 1-2 times per day. Sometimes he will actually walk with Daddy the whole time, other times he gets picked up because he's tired, or they will go in the stroller. He's very hands on and really enjoys stopping to touch every rock he finds, all the leaves he sees, etc. He is also becoming very aware of everything that goes on in the neighborhood and is constantly pointing at things- dogs, birds, trucks, other children.

Currently we are working on dropping bottles and the second nap. We just got some new "big boy" sippy cups that Sean really likes, so we are on day two of no bottles except one right before bedtime. Some days Sean will take one 2.5-3.5 hour nap, around 11:30 or 12 until sometime between 2-3:30pm. Other days he is too tired and grumpy to stay up past 10:30am and ends up needing a second nap around 3 or 4pm. We are trying to just go with the flow and let him sleep when he needs to, but as parents it's also our job to help maintain some order so that we all can sleep well at night time and get ready for the next busy day. Our little man eats like a champion, and his favorite foods are fruits, veggies, and of course MaMa's spaghetti! He also will drink water all day if we let him, so we have learned to cut him off around 5:30-6pm so he doesn't end up with a soaking wet diaper when he wakes up in the morning. I have found that we don't even need to buy juice for him, considering he loves to eat fruits and veggies alone and loves to drink both water and milk.

Well I guess that will be it for now. As usual, I will leave you with a few recent pictures of our pride and joy

I love my Little Heart Breaker

walking around outside with Daddy

such a heartthrob!

BATHTIME!!!!!

YEY!!!!!

drinking milk from his big boy sippy

Yum

peek-a-boo!!

we went to the zoo with our friend Katie and her son Luke

learning to eat with a spoon

Keeping up!!!

OK, I am reeeeaallly going to try harder to keep my blog updated. It's tough, because I am on FB ALL THE TIME and I figure that everyone who reads my blog is on FB anyway, so what's the point in keeping a blog? But regardless, I am going to try to keep up here anyways!!

So it's February 2nd, and I started back at work yesterday. Boo. Well, honestly it wasn't that bad. After I walked in the door, the first thing I noticed was the entire inside of the building was painted BLUE instead of ORANGE. That's cool I guess. Then I noticed the "commons" area (basically a large circular section in the middle of the "wings" that hold the cubicle areas) was completely empty. Before I had left (over 1 year ago, may I remind you) this area had some plants, some couches, a couple of chairs, etc. A lot of people liked to hang out here at breaks/lunches. Now there is NOTHING there!! So I guess people are forced to sit in the cafeteria area at uncomfortable chairs at the lunch tables. I guess the higher ups at the company came to visit a few months ago and didn't like seeing employees sprawled out/sleeping on the couches- apparently it looks bad when they are touring/interviewing for prospecting employees.

After I got over the shock of all that, I began to see some of my co-workers, and they all gave me hugs, and told me they were so glad I was back, and how they were all taking bets on whether I would be back at all ; ) Then, of course, they asked about the baby, and I got to show off pictures and be a proud Momma : ) I basically spent all day checking 700+ emails (that was only about 2 months worth, the rest were deleted due to lack of space on my computer LOL), trying to get passwords reset and regain access to the systems I will be using, and "nesting" in with other employees on their calls. It was a very easy and non-stressful first day back, and by the time my shift was over I felt like I had never left in the first place.

The BEST news is that instead of an 11am-8pm schedule like I had anticipated, I actually have a 10:30am-7:30pm schedule- which means I have the possibility of being home by 8, which means some nights I will actually get to kiss my little munchkin goodnight before he goes to bed- YEY!!!!!

So I am getting used to the idea that the next chapter in my life involves spending 50 hours a week in a building with other adults, talking to people about their cell phone bills- rather than spending all day with my sweet little angel of a baby. It's not a bad thing- he is a year old now (which I will blog about later) and he is truly blossoming into his own person now. So honestly it is a good thing that I am going back to work. He gets to spend more quality time with Daddy (with no Momma present) and once he starts daycare he will get to develop some social skills with other kiddos his age. I am soooooo thankful that I got to spend the entire first year of his life with him at home, so at least there is that. Not to mention I will be bringing home a paycheck now, what-what??

I will try to post later this week (maybe on Sunday?) about Sean's first birthday and his birthday party. But here are some cute pictures to tide you over for now ; )